But this isn't about putting him down or making it about him. This blog is about me, and what I feel. So right now, I feel worthless, disrespected, alone and hurt. I called my best friend, my mom and cried to her about it. As it seems she agrees that "he works so much, or he's sick" so he should get out of chores. Well I'm sick of picking up after him.
I tried to talk to him about relatives coming to visit us, and that we needed to work on our marriage to get stronger. He flipped saying he's a family man. Apparently his wife isn't his family, because that's just about how he made it seem.
He doesn't think we should be saving money, he doesn't think its fair that I have another account and he doesn't think its fair he doesn't do anything. Well here's my opinion. Screw that shit! I will put money into savings, I will continue to have another account because he has acted stupidly with finances and I'm not going to get taken down with him. And no one told him not to go out or do stuff, so please I beg of him... Enough of the bull shit.
His temper is worse, it scares me. He doesn't communicate, so we get no where with "conversations" because hes to busy yelling, and putting me down. I'm sorry the 1 day he is home that the kitchen isn't sparkling clean. But seriously.... I am over it.
When your mom is actually scared for your marriage, you know its not a good one.
Honestly, I am scared. What if this doesn't work. What am I going to do, where am I going go and how am I going to do it. I moved across the country for this man I barely knew, and now as the days go by, his temper is worse, his communication is non-existent, and his responsibility for money is pathetic. Why should he control our finances when he had collections, and just shoved bills into drawers or had late payments before I got here..
So yes, maybe this did turn into a rant.. But i needed a friend and my blog seems to be the one I go to.