February 20, 2011

Withdrawal & Nonsense

So, it's been around a week since being of my medication, and when I say medication that's around 15 different medications. So if you ever had withdrawal symptoms it's awful. The main symptoms I'm experiencing major panic attacks, paranoia, hot spells then chills, and severe depression. It's been a rough week, and I did take a job at a collections agency but I hated it and ended up quitting. I had the support of my parents and husband but some of my friends got upset about it for G-d knows what reasons. My husband is working for the next 24 hours, so I've been going through living hell with out him today. I feel so alone and lost, and horrified with out him here while I'm going through this. Thankfully my mom is to the rescue again as usual, and is flying out here next week to help me through this. Were not sure how long it's going to be like this, and well on top of it all I have a heart monitor on. But this time its not for 24 hours but a month. The Doctors don't know whats wrong with my heart so they are monitoring it for a month.

With everything about my health going so bad, my emotional state is at a low. I'm still taking my anti-depressants and heart medication but everything else is now gone! I'm feeling lost and confused and so alone. I'm so thankful my mom is coming out to help me.

This blog was just a bunch of venting, so I apologize if it was just randomness.


  1. Awww, so sorry you are feeling bad. I hope the doctors are able to figure out what is going on with your heart :)

  2. Sometimes it's just best to rant & rave on your blog! I do it too. I'm praying for you...

  3. Just taking the few moments to blog and vent about what's going on and how you are feeling only shows just how strong you are! Keeping reaching out this way...you are never as alone as you feel and you do have many out here in blogville that are pulling for you!!!

  4. Ugh sounds like you are feeling awful! So glad your Mom is coming out to help!


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