this isn't normal

I wish I could say October is going great here in Alaska and that I'm enjoying the few days left of no snow. Oh but I am not. 

As I'm on the phone with the Triage Nurse trying to make an appointment for my bronchitis follow up, I'm explaining that I was coughing up blood.

She wouldn't even make me an appointment, she immediately told me to go to the ER. I broke down once I hung up the phone, this was going to be my 4th time in the ER in my 20 weeks of pregnancy. I'm frantically trying to get ahold of my husband whose at the Range. No answer. Of course, why would my husband be available. After an "this is an emergency text message" I got a call. He wan't coming to the ER, he had to train. I was pissed, hurt and alone. He did eventually make it to the ER after I texted him how upset I was that he was being treated like a Private (which he's far from) and that his pregnant wife is in the ER coughing up blood and no one seemed to care. 

Once in the ER, they saw me immediately. It's never reassuring when they are rushing you back after triage. It was exactly one week ago that I was in the same ER with bronchitis.

This time, he checked to see if I had Phenomena with no x-ray. Thankfully no, but he didn't seem to be concerned with the coughing up blood. He nicely said its a sinus infection and theirs nothing you can do. It will last a few months. 

Wrong answer.. a few months of coughing up blood acting like it's normal, coughing to the point of trying to get air... All normal..

I didn't go to med school, but that is just not normal sounding to me.

In the 20 weeks of pregnancy I have had a UTI, kidney infection, bronchitis & now a sinus infection...

& on top of all that I am still having morning sickness..

This is my first pregnancy & I'm thinking that it just doesn't agree with me.

It's so hard to connect with my little baby when I'm so miserable, and sick. I feel awful. Everyone asks what I think it is, boy or girl. I can't even think about it, I have no clue and it hurts. People always say "we knew it was a girl" "we knew it was a boy"..  I can't even tell, all I'm hoping is that after all the medications I've been on that the baby is okay.