January 15, 2012

The Reality of it all

I am not a very religious person, but this is definitely relates to what I'm going through (well with the people around me).
A lying tongue is not only something God hates, it is also something that is an abomination to Him.

Prov 6:16-19
16 There are six things which the LORD hates, Yes, seven which are an abomination to Him:
17 Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, And hands that shed innocent blood,
18 A heart that devises wicked plans, Feet that run rapidly to evil,
19 A false witness who utters lies, And one who spreads strife among brothers.

Since last week I have been dealing with the drama of my husband going behind my back and refinancing our house. Now it's just unraveling into a larger mess.

When I spoke to my husband we settled a few things, but he's having a hard time overseas that I can't bring myself to tell him the details and the action that needs to be taken. But because I can't get it all off my chest I've spent the entire week in tears, overly stressed and angry. Not how I wanted to spend the last month and a 1/2 of pregnancy. 

This past week has been the hardest week of my life, I wish this was the only problem that I've had to deal with in our marriage regarding lying but its not. This is probably the 5th lying situation having to deal with finances. Although this one is the largest and definitely the cherry on top of shit sundae. 

I have no idea what to do at this point, but looking into legal separation it on my list of things research. Yes it's drastic, but 2 years later into our marriage and nothing has changed except for more lying it might be whats necessary. 

It breaks my heart to have our marriage go through this during a deployment && with Landon 6 weeks away from being here. Although not taking care of it will make it worse in the long run.

Yes as of now I want nothing to do with his family, if he wants to see his family that's fine but I won't' be involved and neither will Landon. Landon doesn't need the negative, manipulative people in his life. If they choose to show me that they can understand boundaries, respect ME &&&& MY FAMILY, and allow Thomas to make his own decisions and not be overbearing THEN Thomas and I will discuss the possibility of a QUICK visit for them to see Landon. 

Nothing can be done until Thomas comes home and things get worked out. Until then I plan on going to the chaplain and getting advice on what to do with the situation during the deployment. 

Here's to hoping the new week goes better than this past week. 


  1. yikes, thats a tough situation. I would be furious.

    Try to focus on your little man that is coming and not worry about it for the time being. You will figure out what is right when he gets home.

  2. I hope things get better for you. =( Good luck!


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