Well, I did it made it through yesterday and today so far with out the husband to help with the three dogs, 1 cat and well a partially disabled in pain wife. But I DID IT! Yes, it was crazy and chaotic, as I was going on 48 hours of no sleep yesterday, I was barely able to read, write and let alone talk. I sounds like an overly wasted person trying to get into the wrong car. As I woke up this morning with my husband at 3:30 am, I was up and ready to read. That is until he left to work and my head hit the pillow once again.
I saw my therapist today, and she also thinks I still sound like an overly drugged woman, BUT she does think I should start getting off the medications so my husband and I can have BABIES!! Which I'm DYING FOR, and WANT SUPER BAD! But my husband wants to wait until Alaska, but the last thing I want to do is be pregnant in Alaska, where I seriously won't know anyone and I'll be so far away from everyone. I hate his plan, there I said it. It sucks, I want babies, and I want them so I can be pregnant with my friends around me comforting me.
So, I made the decision when I see my other Dr. that she needs to take me off all the medication bad for babies, and keep me on stuff that is safe for pregnancy. (Which in my eyes is NOTHING).. But the husband still wants to wait, so that's just another conversation that I have to put my foot down!
Today was a good day, I was happy the way the therapist went and glad that she's on the same page. But even better, my momma said I should have babies too! That's two people! :) and well three including me!. Now yes, my marriage is still not PERFECT, but it's been so much better than ever now that we see a counselor together and were learning each others way of communication.
Also after Skyping with my blogger friend Adrienne this morning, I got up went to the gym kicked some butt there, and then had the courage to call some companies with job openings... And the result... I got two interviews this week! Along with the disability office getting my fax, and starting my claim.. Doctors are starting to get the paperwork to fill out, and all they need to do is release my medical records.
So All I have to say now is: