Volunteering shouldn't be this hard

After having a complete breakdown last night about finances, my marriage and the in-laws, I stayed up half the night with stomach problems, and shooting pains in my sides. I also read almost all my book last night. I finished it today.

I started to every morning write a list of things that need to get done that day, and go about my day usually starting at 5:30 or 6am. I got to finish my book, and relax a bit but then started getting frustrated with finances again so I e-mailed my mother in law all the information regarding my husbands accounts per the agreement last night (she would help pay down his stupidity debt and help us out), since by the way her son has been lying to me constantly.

Anyways I went to the orientation for the Big Brother Big Sister organization to learn about helping children and mentoring them. But of course with my luck I can't sign on as a volunteer because they want a 1 year commitment, and I cant give them that since we are moving in 7 months to Alaska. Needless to say, I was extremely bummed because I was looking forward to volunteering, having a happiness project and getting out in the community.

I'm going to continue looking for more volunteer organizations, preferably they would tell me on the phone they request a 1 year contract; but I want to volunteer, and I want to., NEED TO find a JOB like NOW. I still haven't heard back from any of the jobs I applied for ( the 40 something I did send out resumes to), and I didn't hear back from any of the roommate people after I sent them e-mails back. UGH.

Good news of the day!
1. I took my puppy to get his shots so his updated!
2. I scheduled an appointment with my therapist (for next week ugh!)
3. I finished my book
4. I got another order for Avon from a co-worker!
5. My mom ordered more stuff so it looks like on the Lead Rep End that I'm doing well.

Now, I'm going to try my shot at yoga, make dinner for my invisible husband, and read a new book about finances. Also take another seminar on Avon. Hopefully this will all relax me, since my xanax ran out and it's been anxiety attack central in this house.

Thanks for listening, xoxo