Back to Work in Finances

I did it, after completely spamming out my resume and applying to every job possible I got a job. Interesting enough its with finances again, although my previous job was giving out loans, this job is collecting on loans and credit.

It was necessary for me to get a job to help pay for the finances in our household, with two cars, a mortgage, and debt galore, but thankfully we have two amazing families that have helped us out this year tremendously.
In the past few months we were able to pay off 1/2 our debt and get back on track with payments. Now with my new job making the same as my previous job, well be back on track to pay off all our debt (using the snow ball effect).

In seven months we will be moving across the country to Alaska, and most likely be stationed there for 2 years. Neither of our cars are equipped for weather like that, or have any type of snow "attire". We discussed that we will be selling his car (again) or trading it in to get an SUV. Why an SUV you ask? We have 3 dogs, 1 cat and hopefully within a the next 2 years a baby on the way. And I'm terrified to drive in snow in a small car, not because of me but because of everyone else. (I'm a baby what can I say).

Having this job, and bills paid down will allow us to get better financing on the SUV and have an opportunity to put money into savings for things down the road and an emergency fund.

I never thought I would be into finances, since after high school I went to beauty school and worked in the entertainment industry as a makeup artist. But now I have a passion for finances, and love working with numbers. Am I brilliant with numbers, no. But I can learn damn fast and with passion, persistence and hard work it all works out.

In a few days we will also be receiving a large amount of money from taxes, and family to help us even more with the debt. I am glad to say we are on our way to a debt free life and can support each other with love and kindness and not have the stress of finances tearing us apart.

Other updates:
The husband will be re-enlisting soon.
I start training on Valentines Day (not like my husband will be getting me anything as usual).
Avon is harder than I thought, and would LOVE if people would order from my site. It will be directly shipped to you, and there is 100% full guarantee so if you are unhappy you can send it back.

Also, in March we have both of our families visiting and will be attending the second to last graduation my husband will be in (he's a drill sergeant). After that is June where my biological family is driving from NY to visit, meet my husband and to see the graduation as well.

What I haven't figured out is how is my job, his job and our families all going to work out? And how will we entertain them when neither of us are home.

Church x 2 and moving on

I know I'm lagging on the blogging, but it's been a crazy past month. I actually missed 2 appointments, therapy and a pre-op for sinus surgery because I've been so out of it. With the 17, yes 17 medications I have been taking my mind is seriously in a world of it's own. Last night, I spoke with my husband about the medications, and just how they are making me so out of it. I know he doesn't understand how I feel, or what type of disgusting funk these pills are putting me in, but he's been there, and that's what means the most to me.
Also last night, I saw the Church his mom suggested to us a year ago, and asked my husband to drag his sick butt out with my sick butt (were both sick with bad colds)to that church to see what they're about.

Church # 1: Cascade Hills Baptist Church Saturday Night Service
The main focus for their new focus for February was "Connecting with God". They discussed the best time to pray, (morning), and what prayer does ( connects you with God, brings you answers, and gives your spiritual strength). They discussed the power of fasting and prayer, and the burden that will be lifted after the process.

Church # 2: MyChurch (the one we usually go to)Sunday Service
At our church, their focus was concluding "From Here to There", and Week 5 was "Physical Life". They asked us to think about what we want to do, then to do it. (STOP THINKING AND DO IT!).

1. Corinthians 6: 19-20 - Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

1. Think of how to honor God with your body.

2. Develop a Battle Plan/ Action Plan. (Think of steps to achieve your goals)

3. Get into Relationships. (Somebody who will support or help you).

Moving On

Now with all the church stuff being said, lets discuss moving on.
A while back I posted a blog, from what I remember in NY when I met my biological family. I was describing my biological family, and used the word "adoptive" parents to explain and make it clear. Using the word adoptive, was not to be taken in negative from just for complete understanding.

Some might question and still dwell on the word "adoptive" but I need it to be said that it was not meant to be negative in any way. Now, I shouldn't have to defend myself on my blog, but I don't want the person thinking about the word negatively to hurt. Why because it's my mom.. I hate that she thinks I meant it negatively or took it negatively, when I was just putting it into writing perspective.

Here's my input, and last word on the subject of biological family and adoptive family, they are just words.
My biological family is now a part of my life, I am thankful for my biological mom for not aborting me, and giving me a good life by putting me in the right peoples hands. And I am even more thankful and grateful for my parents, yes my parents, the people that have raised me and been there for good bad and ugly. Through all my medical problems, emotional breakdowns, and temper tantrums. I am thankful for both families, and find that I am appreciative for the lives they both provided. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my biological mother, and I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for my parent's that raised me into a woman, a wife, sister and daughter.

I hope that everyone including my parents, family, friends, and blogging buddies understand that I did not mean to hurt anyone, and that I am sorry for hurting my parent's feelings. I am crushed that this has still gone on, and hasn't been crushed. So here I am, speaking out and now moving on. I can't dwell on the past, after conversations consisting of screaming, tears and hateful words.

I will be the adult I am, and I am publicly apologizing to my parents. But at this point, I will continue to blog and I will continue to try to keep the context into descriptive terms without hurting people's feelings. I don't want people hurt by what I am saying.

Thanks everyone for reading my blog, I would appreciate some input, comments or advice..

Xoxo

Eventful Weekend & Upcoming New Year

This has been a long week, and I'm ready for tomorrow. Tomorrow I will be getting baptized at Church, in the presence of friends, army family and church family. I have the support of my biological family, and my in-laws, but I am still unsure of my adoptive family. But this is my decision, and I am so excited to take this step in the right direction of my new life.
Yesterday, while Christmas shopping I bought myself a bible (pink of course).
I am ready to be my own person, and make my own decisions not depend on others. I feel like my adoptive parents are hurt, but they won't communicate with me about it, so I don't care. Is that selfish or heartless of me? I want to be a good daughter, but more than anything in this world I want to be my own individual.
I am turning 25 in 3 months, and I have also made the decision to meet my biological mom. We spoke today and she bought my ticket to fly out in January for 2 weeks. Again, my adoptive parent's seem unemotional and upset but they don't speak to me as usual. (Growing up it's been all about the television, fighting, and eating out or ordering in). I can honestly say I have never had a home cooked meal from my adoptive mother. But that's besides the point. I will finally be going to find the person who brought me into this world, a piece of me that has been missing my entire life. Is it me for being excited, or rude? Don't I have the right to want this, and to make this decision when I was comfortable. Most of the time I don't feel my adoptive family understands where I come from, or even tries to understand. When I do try to describe my feelings or thoughts, they say that I am being over dramatic or thinking about it in my own head.

The Breakdown

The Good

The good of this week: Being baptized tomorrow
The good of the new start of the year: Meeting my biological mom and family
The good of my life: Marrying a great man, and having his support
The good of my current location: Meeting amazing friends that have become family, and support everything I have done

The Bad

The bad feeling of my adoptive parent's making me feel hurt
The bad of not knowing if I should be happy or not
The bad of being confused in my own body, and feeling regretful of my health.